I’m delighted and a bit stunned to have several of my little paintings published today on Detour Ahead, an online project for artists and writers. The exhibition features work done during the pandemic. Having had hundreds of stories published in some spiffy places, I must say that this is uniquely humbling.
After rereading my first published essay, a piece about race and elections in The Chicago Tribune in 1989, I was disheartened by the relevance it still has and was inspired to put together a selection of 51 published stories with similarly pertinent messages. They have been stored in my portfolios, as hard copies, a number of them never having flown through the ethers on the World Wide Web. So, herewith, a heartfelt and (I hope) lively, funny and meaningful collection of cultural observation and personal revelation, from 1989 to present day. I’d be honored if you’d purchase a copy.
A selection of 51 of my published essays, spanning three decades of cultural commentary and personal revelation, is coming this week. Happy to have them in one place.
I’m honored to have this piece published today in The Woven Tale Press.
Some thoughts on instinct and hope and bears. Really big bears. https://medium.com/@pamelakripke/big-things-come-in-big-packages-39c9e2f0fd5d
Read my latest essay, on Medium…
Each afternoon, I call Mom in Florida and ask her questions. Are you staying inside? Were the bananas delivered? Did you wipe down the mailbox?
She says yes to everything I ask, though no is sometimes the accurate reply, I discover the next day.
“Are you staying away from that neighbor…Richard?”
“Yes,” she said on Tuesday. “I spoke to him through the closed door.”
“Are you getting any fresh air?” I asked on Wednesday.
“I took a short walk.”
“Good. Were there people out?”
“Empty. Just me. And Richard.”
Richard goes places, and we determined last week that he could transmit germs and that Mom should stay away from him. When he goes to the places, he offers to bring back items for my mother. Richard is a nice neighbor. My mother likes to have bananas. We determined that when Richard brings back the bananas, my mother would thank him through the louvers in the door and retrieve the sack once he had disappeared down the path. I asked her why she would thank him through the louvers yet go on a walk with him. She said that he was far away.
“Six feet away? Ten feet away?”
My mother is 83 and lives alone. She cannot see her friends, and her family is up north. She is happy that I call her every day. The next afternoon, she answers, giggling.
“You are like Rotocall.”
We laugh, and she tells me that she drove to a store for the bananas and a lovely girl put them in her back seat.
At the window, you hear the people clapping and cheering, and you join in. You push up the glass and stand tall, feeling thankful for the doctors and nurses and orderlies and custodians. The ambulance drivers, the cafeteria workers, the medics.
At 7:07, you come back “in,” and you think about the conversation that you had earlier in the day, the one in which your brother, a surgeon, told you that he was exposed to the virus in the hospital and was tested. And is fine. But was nervous. And kept it from your mother, who is 83 and would worry. Then you think about your sister-in-law and your nephew and your childhood pal and the poor soul from Mt. Sinai West and the nurses at Elmhurst and you fear for all of them, safe inside your kitchen, children in the next room.
Sometimes, I will say, “That is a good title for something,” and I write it down. I have a list of phrases, fragments and sentences that are waiting for stories to go with them.
A few years ago, I was watching the news late at night when one such batch of words formed in my head.
Tragedies Before Bed.
Snappy, right? This one is at the top of my list. But in all this time, I haven’t come up with a tale that suits its image, whether real or imagined. I certainly can’t waste such a title on something tame or humorous or mildly terrible, even. The words need weight. They need comfort thrust up against horror, safety against fear.
Each night after dinner, my daughters and I convene in front of the TV to watch a program, or seven, that will distract us from the day’s information. During the past 14 nights, we have cheered on American Idol contestants, rooted for Dr. Pol’s lame goats and played our favorite “This is Us” game, Predict-the-Next-Scene-Before-it-Happens. When we are tired, they go to bed, lulled by the drama of Hollywood Week. I stay up and switch the channel, unable to sleep before knowing where we all stand. Making sure I’ve got our house in order.
It is one after the other, the tragedies. Rapid fire. I pull up the covers and watch.